Dear Bestfriend….I’ve been thinking. I have known you for what feels like my whole life. I know you better than anyone else on this planet. And I just wanted to check in and see if I am being the best friend that I can be. Am I saying all the right things to you?
I’ve noticed you’ve put on some pounds.
Your hair looks horrible lately.
Why can’t you get your shit together.
Sometimes you are such an idiot.
You need to get an identity…you know, be someone that you can brag about.
Your gray hair is creeping through and you are looking older.
Oh, and those zits are getting out of hand and they are all that I look at.
You don’t deserve love, and this amazing life is too good for you.
You’re not smart enough, pretty enough, interesting enough…but I am suppose to love you.
I think I will ignore your desires for now, because you come last!
This all sounds ridiculous, right? Before you guys all freak out on me for being the worst friend in the world, I wanted to ask you a simple question. If you wouldn’t ever use these words on your bestfriend…why in God’s name do you say them to yourself????? I have been paying attention a lot lately to the broken record that plays over and over in my head. Over the years the words have become way less harsh but there is still the a glimmer of that ‘mean girl’ inside me. You’d be surprised at the useless and damaging words that you are feeding yourself throughout the day. I am so quick to say flippant words to myself under my breathe in the middle of a vulnerable moment. Jake would never use these useless words towards me and vice versa…so why do they linger in my head. Well, it’s just a little food for thought this fine day. We have no idea just how powerful our words are, especially to ourselves. SO pay attention to what you are telling that BFF inside you. Why are you being such a bad friend that amazing person that you are? Get conscious of the record playing in that head of yours…as a matter of fact, records are totally outdated and it’s time to just reboot;)
Because I know how powerful my words are I just wanted to leave some new language behind that I have replaced my old record with:)
I am an example of vibrant health.
I recognize my body as a wonderous and magnificent machine, and I fell privileged to live in it.
All is well in my world.
I am more beautiful then I have ever felt.
I adore my life and deserve every piece of good in it.
In this infinity in life where I am, all is perfect, whole and complete.
Today is a new day. I am a new me.
I am in love with me and I am grateful for the life that I have created and continue to be blessed with everyday.
I accept all the health, wealth and love that is coming into my life right now:)
How’s that for some positive thoughts? I love the exciting new seeds that have been planted in me and I am continually amazing at all the amazing growth. Now go…go look in the mirror and be a better friend!